I had this pair of shoes that I bought almost 10 years ago. I wore them until the soles were worn to the ground and the seams around the foot were shredded. And as soon as that happened, I went online to find the same exact pair so I could buy another one.

They weren’t there.

For the last 3 or 4 years, I’ve been looking for those shoes to no avail. Even when I was in Nashville, I was still looking. I loved those shoes.

The other day, I was online looking for a pair of Pumas that I tried on at one of the shoe stores at the mall in Nashville. They were lime green, and cute, and made my feet look cute which is quite a feet (just ask my brothers). Except that I only packed a carry-on for the whole week, and there was no way I was getting one more shoe in my luggage, so I figured I’d just order them once I get home.

But they aren’t there either.

And then it happened. As I am always looking for those shoes I loved so much way back when, I searched for the brand and what! What is this! A pair not entirely dissimilar to the ones I’ve been on a worldwide quest for for the last several years! (I’ve looked in 3 countries and on countless websites) .

But the problems I now face:

1. What about the Pumas??

2. How do I justify another pair of shoes to B, except by possibly purging half of the shoes in my closet now that I have the ones I was buying in my grief?

And possibly the most important question:

Black?

or Red??